Saturday, June 24, 2006

try

i'm trying!
where money came from
from under the drain and i'm going to continue sailing. now maybe for all the race excitment, but prolly not next time. i see people racing who're 25 years older than i am. and they're enjoying it. maybe i will too next time. or i'll get a boat, sit in it during the weekends, play golf with my wife, drink beer on the boat.. eat grass on the green. i'd like to sail around the world actually.

so much for so little. it was a long time since i've been overseas to sail, and if it seems like there's nothing much to it in the first place. then why now?

i try.

-free_up9:50 PM

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Friday, June 16, 2006

another attempt to revive this blog
a revamp should be in session

too much of a good thing is not good enough. what's there to define good now a days.
me (now) as a piece of pizza


like a 4 formaggi, there's too much cheeze on it.
1/4 Gruyere: so much for sailing, so little from it too. now if i look at it, so much for most of the dreams that i had after coming back from italy. obviously most accolades from the past don't speak out much. and much izzint just passe (thanks yi-ming) anymore.
recently, the much anticipated asia pac proved to me that my mental izzint as strong as how it used to be. i tell colin that i've never hiked 100% before, and now i think about it, what difference does it make to me as a sailor if i've never done 100% in italy or canada, and 100% now in singapore? if i want to prove myself, i should have done 100% in canada and italy, not wait till a regatta in singapore in which will not have direct influence and try to go all out..
sad to say, i never reached 100% in asia pac. the closest i ever got was in one race, and for that, i think it was the only race i'd had deserved my position.
and the happenings in the school team worries me even more.

1/4 Edam: Studies might have taken a new priority. it shouldn't be ala quarttro, but more like a third. if its so much of an importance, why then is procrastination my main worry.

1/4 mozzarella: Council, it was a choice which i made to enlist upon. its a good choice by me, not a favourite by the people who have been supporting me. it's going to be here to stay, come 26th June 2006.

1/4 Belpaese: jazz is one thing, playing it is another. time is invested and time is lost. it occured to me that you can't win time. and time is never on our side. its always on someone else's, but who? you may ask. who? the time which dictates different jazz styles are getting the better of me nowadays, i can't play like how i used to 4 months ago. i can't hold my instrument and feel like i can make music anymore.

topping: there is this one. which i mentioned to my mum today, which i hope will be the first on the pizza, and the last to go when its eaten.

-free_up11:36 PM

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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

i don't know myself anymore

-free_up8:14 PM

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Saturday, April 08, 2006

my first car accident!

thank goodness no one died. jackson and i were sitting in the back of the red van (and thank goodness my dad wasn't driving the car. he'd flip) and then this woman driver just rolled into the back. so jackson got a lil bruised in his neather regions. so this hot girl came out of the car looking quite distraught. her number plate fell off and the bumper became dysfunctional. i got a picture of the car!

anyawy, she was quite hot. old though. and we concluded that it's probably not her car in the 1st place. haha. and damages will probably cost quite alot.. tsk tsk.

-free_up9:22 PM

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Friday, April 07, 2006

megaphones and saxophones

colin and i were doing gym at katc today. i haven't been to that place in 7 months, since i came back from italy. and they took away my carding saying that i haven't been training regularly. so cannot go for physio. -pouts.
so i thought about it, and there came up with the paradox of a good sailor

if i want to sail, i must come down for training
if i train, i improve
if i want to study, i cannot go down for training
but if i study, i do well in my subjects
theorotically, if i want to be a good sailor, i must train
and if i train, i cannot study
if i cannot study, i cannot do well in school
if i don't do well in school.. how?
exceptions: dawn <--- that one can do well and win sea games

and so, i tried explaining s, p, d,f to colin. in which i realized that i could recount only so much. so, its back to chem.

and weddings. maybe i've already found my best man. hahaha. (ratherly gay)

and i got demoralized seeing ronald susilo running on the track with me. when i reached kallang, he was running. 15mins later when i was at the track he was running. when i was running at 70% (trying to keep up), he was still running. when i decided that there was too much stress, and left the track after 2 rounds, he was STILL running. and after anothe 15 mins in the gym, he came in. goodness. -.-

and so, about the music.
so.. irritated.
amd i don't even know if i'm going to get the green light for another gig.
8:24 the gig is cancelled cuz its the day after oep.
anyway, i don't know what he thinks of me. my father won't even open his mouth to say anything anymore.

-free_up8:08 PM

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Sunday, April 02, 2006

i'm back!

oh the experience was good. and the rest was good too!

and i thought about school, work and God. and i realized how much i'm missing out in my spiritual life. and i got back happier than before.

we need an identiy! anglo chinese yacht club.

and i'm going to change myself.

-free_up9:45 PM

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Thursday, March 30, 2006

and so 2 hours

even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: but they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; and shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk and not faint

Isaiah 40: 30 - 31

God is great

thankew (:

-free_up10:52 PM

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and today, became a bad day.

clandestine - i wonder why i'm feeling this way. it should be a normal day. i'm currently a loss for words. i don't want to talk.

'you can't please everyone'

ME, is there more personality to a character. there should be less of ME and more of..you guys. i doubt i have personality. i don't know my own personality. and i don't like my personality. personality.

i enjoyed the vault, and company.

'kwong-ming, listen: wake me up when'
'september ends?'

'again, wake me up when'
'september ends?'

'wake me up when...'
'september ends?'

'huh, i don't know what you're talking about..'

'are you sure'

'yes, i have absolutely no idea what you're talking about'

'oh then..'

'what did you mean by that when you asked me that question?'

'oh.. i didn't mean anything, then it's ok'

'madam, then what did you mean?'

'let me give you some advice... firstly... secondly... lastly..'

today pass, and tomorrow come. and i haven't felt like THIS in a long long time. close to a year ago. a year ago.

-free_up9:11 PM

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

truth based on reasoning

i'm a farmer and i live on a farm
i'm a pig and i live on a farm

i'm a vampire and i live in a castle
i'm a king and i live in a castle

i'm a dinosaur and i live in a cave
i'm a caveman and i live in a cave

i can swim
fish can swim
amoeba can swim
sperm can swim
chuck norris can swim

-free_up8:50 PM

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through a glass, i saw grey clouds in the distace and we continued to talk about sailing. and school. and what came, and what went. and what stayed and what left. and what was remembered and what was forgotten. and what survived and what disappeared. and what moved and what not. and what was enjoyably funny and what was.. not enjoyably funny.

one of which
i'm not going to say. as there is no need. and because people come back down and land on their feet. moving on..

i cut my hair with scissors.
i cut my nails with a nail clipper
i cut my paper with a paper cutter
i cut my grass with a grasscutter

conversely

i cut my hair with a paper cutter
i cut my nails with a grasscutter
i cut paper with a nail clipper
i cut my grass with a scissors
i cut more hair with a cleaver
tsk.

-free_up8:31 PM

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